My Family 2011

My Family 2011

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Saying goodbye to Kayla

Saying goodbye to Kayla has been the hardest day of my life so far. My heart is aching for her. I knew joining the Marine Corps is something that she has wanted for a while now. We have gone through alot together to get to this point. As a mom you always want more for your children than you had for yourself. I want my daughter's to go out on their own and find themselves. I want them to find out what they like, don't like, fall in love, fall out of love, make mistakes, travel, meet many people and eventually get married and have babies. I want everything to be on their terms and do things because they feel it's right. I love Kayla so much that even as my heart feels broken and I am scared and worrying about her like never before, I am willing to let her go. I wish she was just going off to college somewhere, that would be a little less painful knowing she's not being physically and emotionally challenged on a daily basis, but this is what she chose in her life. I am her mother and her supporter until the end. She was my first born baby and I will always remember the great times we've shared.  I am so proud of her for being such a strong girl, and soon to be women. I thank God for giving her to me and letting us grow up together. I can't wait until we see eachother again in October.